MOVING

Ok, first of all, I've decided to move to Blogspot instead of Tumblr for a number of reasons:

1. Not everyone can comment on Tumblr (or I can't figure out how it exactly works yet)
2. I think this is a better site for blogging and Tumblr is more for posting pictures
3. They have AWESOME gadgets here! From a Skype button (though I'm not sure if it's working x.x) to mini-games to world clocks to a chat box! These features sealed the deal for me that's why I'm here!

I have been transferring my previous entries here from Tumblr all night after packing last minute and I've decided that I don't want to go to sleep yet for two reasons:

1. I'd rather sleep on the plane on the way to the United States (oh how I dread that moment x.x)
2. I'm a bit too emo to sleep

I've been receiving text messages and wall posts from my very close and dear friends wishing me good luck and a safe trip tomorrow... or later, I mean. And, everything is just so... overwhelming. I did not expect this much people to text or message me. I'm utterly touched with everyone :') This made it harder to leave I guess. It seems like I'm leaving so much behind, my family, my friends, familiarity, comfort... I don't know if other JTAers will feel this the moment they are about to leave (let me know guys). Or maybe it's because I'm going there alone (technically, mom's coming with me but you get the point) unlike other people who will be going to their destination countries in groups. They know who they are staying with, they know what they want to do or where they'd want to travel to and they have a constant companion during the whole trip. But for me, I have no such idea or plans. We're only two in USF and my co-JTAer is already there. I don't even know who my roommate will be. Will she be nice? I really do hope so. I don't even know if we will get the chance to travel unlike other JTAers 'cause my parents are strict. I don't know if we will have fun, if I will meet enough friends, if the weather is okay etc. There are so many uncertain things and for an OC gal like me, I'm feeling a bit anxious. We were so excited to leave but as I've mentioned in my previous entry, when the moment comes, you don't know what to feel anymore. Yes, I'm still excited of course... Maybe I'm just a bit nervous... or hungry... or both. Haha! Kidding. But this is just temporary. It's part of the fun right? So bring it on I tell you. BRING.IT.ON.

So, maybe I didn't really want to sleep now 'cause I want to savor my last hours here at home, lying here in my bed, in my room and everything else. I want to savor the feeling of knowing what to do tomorrow, of knowing what's for dinner and knowing that I have my friends and family here at my side no matter what. These are only some of the things I'm concerned with but what the hell. That's why I wanted to JTA in the first place. To have a bit of adventure, to tackle the unknown and come out of it alive and a brand new person, changed hopefully for the better. Besides, by this time on the other side of the world, I should be awake too, going to class, studying. So might as well practice too, right? Yeah, maybe.

So okay. My flight is at 10:30PM tonight so I have roughly 15 hours left to just bum and absorb everything in. 4 months away from home isn't that bad... right? 4 months living alone should sound fun. For someone whose culture is heavily family-oriented, I'll let you know when I finally have my fun. It's my first time leaving home x.x

I will miss my family. I will miss my friends. That I'm certain.

But it's time to move out, move into a new chapter of my life, move to discover myself, move to learn. :)

GOOD BYE PHILIPPINES! I'LL SEE YOU IN DECEMBER!